Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Hassle Of Life

Harlow guys!!! I'm back to the blogging world!!! Well, It's quite some times I didn't updates due to the hectic life at my hometown, Muar. I had spent the last 3 month holidays in Muar. During these 3 month, I learned a lot of things. In fact, I'm so much pressured by every aspect of my life compare to the moment I'm studying in KL. I hardly have enough sleep in Muar while I got too much of sleeping time in KL. I had to work everyday and facing different challenges during the working time in Muar.

However, the pressure is still with me now even though I'm in Kl now. I hopes all these pressure can get over soon and of course with the problems being solved but not because I'm used to it.

Every times when the problems crossed to my mind, I'll hardly sleep on that night. Likes today,I'm still awake at 600 in the morning.I had asked a question to my dad "What will happen if human being is free from pressure? "
My dad answered me "without pressure, there is no improvement, without pressure there is no motivation". I'm agreed with my dad thought but at the same time I'm thinking in my mind, Is the pressure that facing now is too high? In alert level? At the border line? Or it's just moderate only? It's remain unknown to me. Sometimes I felt is at the alert line yet sometimes not.

During the holidays, I found out that I'm not the type which can stand on pressure. I felt lost when I'm pressured. I'm afraid to face it. I tried to avoid from taking any responsible on the work. But, it is a very selfish action. At last,I took up the responsibility and I got the pressure on me. Even though now I'm not the one who is facing it, but I still very care on it. Because I'm the one who passed the unsolved problem to the another person although I'm not the one who start it. I'm involved somehow.

With these, how am I going to take up the challenges when I step into the reality world?
How am I going to success in the future? It's remained unknown to me again. I'm just delaying the time to face all these because I'm not ready for it. And the fact is I remained as a failure until today.

I hope with the efforts had poured on it will get a good result. With this, the presence of GOD is important. May the GOD stand by my side to fulfill my wishes which I prayed tonnes of times. I'm deeply hopes the GOD will reply me one day.

2 comments:

Marilyn said...

u dun think too much. No matter how grey or dark it is, there will always a solutions. We must think in a bright and optimistic way and not being so pessimistic okay.

Human needs to learn through all the process. Pressure is one of it. You have more to learn, so don't alwiz think its hard. cox if u go through it, u will somehow be mature and learn something from there. Hope every pressure currently could make you grow more mature!

Cool down your mind and relax. YOur current focus is still your study, so concentrate on that!

Irish said...

Don't have to worry so much on it. When there is a problem, only then there is a solution. Pressure is just one of them. Just learn to cope with it and everything will be fine and well.

Move on. Life is full of ups and downs and it's unpredictable. There is a chinese saying "人算不如天算".. Let nature take course.

Sometimes, life is beyond our control.